It was prompted by this mornings Dr's appointment for my little boy - I drove right past our fertility clinic. I was vaguely aware of the date - the date that changed our lives forever.
Nov 14th 2005 ~ 5 embryos still growing on morning of day 6 but only two were deemed viable embryos .So we transferred both. We thought chances of twins were remote let alone a pregnancy. We didn't want any left over embryos (if we were successful) with our 1st cycle history a lone embryo might not survive thawing. Mind you as we walked out the hospital we saw twin boys in a pram and gave each other the LOOK !
In 2ww I had bad cramping only probably due to the progesterone gel Crinone but no real pregnancy symptoms.I had some spotting so pessimistically I thought AF was on her way.
Nov 22nd 2005 day 14 of 2ww ~ 8 days after transfer I thought I would do HPT it was actually the last one of three (the first two I used 5 minutes apart when I found out I was pregnant with Charlotte eighteen months before).The expiry date was close so I figured may as well use it because it would go to waste before got to do another cycle.
When I saw two pink lines I couldn't believe it. I thought it was a dodgy test as close to expiry so I didn't get my hopes up.
Nov 23rd ~Nervously, I waited awake half the night till 5.30am to use a cheap internet HPT . 2 pink lines quicker ! IT WAS POSITIVE. I then woke my DH and rang the clinic at 7.30am .I had to know if I was pregnant. It was Wednesday ,one of 3 days they did pregnancy BT, but my beta HCG test wasn't't supposed to be till the next Monday. Our clinic made your BT three weeks after your egg pickup. I wasn't going to wait. The nurse agreed I could come in.
After I had the BT another nurse said it was too early even if I was 15dpo.
That afternoon my HCG was 448 ~ normal was about 100 -200 and right away the forum IVF veterans said? Twins
I can hardly remember what feelings and thoughts ran through my head that day ...I do know reading the stories of ICLW participants reminds me how fragile a time it can be.
I was a lost soul , lost in a dark pit of self pity looking for the light of hope.
I started to reach out and I found solace and solidarity in the arms of virtual strangers. Strangers who were the first to know I was pregnant.Weeks before my family or real life friends.
It reminds me of the people that supported me on my journey. I haven't forgotten them though our busy lives make connecting a little more difficult.
Kinship . Friends who helped me through the maze.
And if you ever feel lost as though in a maze again - you're not. For duringAdvice of the Day
the day all the wonders of mother nature will keep you company to buffer you
from pain and loneliness.
- Rejoice in the progress you have made each day ...each leg of the journey is important. Take it one day or step at a time.
- Connect with others on the same path as you.
- Keep a journal ... it is amazing to look back and remember how far you have come.
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