Wednesday, 24 February 2016

Sydney Skinny ~ Dare you to go for a dip

Like many people who have experienced cancer (Breast Cancer [2012] , Sarcoma [2014] and Melanoma [2015] ) I've had a hard time figuring out how to present myself to the world post cancer, most significantly, since I straight up opted not to go through Breast reconstruction.

I struggle with body image, I have my whole life due to a genetic disorder Neurofibromatosis (NF1). NF causes lumps, bumps and tumours to grow on nerves, amongst other awful things (like rare malignant cancers and sarcoma)

Blindness in one eye caused a slight outward turn (ok weird one eye looks the other way when I talk to people) and then there is that frankenstein looking screw behind my right ear for the BAHA (bone anchored hearing aid)



I've never liked my photo taken. I've destroyed many because I didn't like the way I looked.

Delete is my favourite photo edit.

Losing my breasts was not a huge loss, I got to live.
I miss cleavage and nice fitting clothes.
I miss that feeling of removing my bra at the end of the day.NOT.

Cancer changed the way I look, think and feel.
Cancer did not make me less of woman or person.

My flat and fabulous chest is a badge of honour to me.
My scars (there are many) tell a story.
Long story.
I'm still processing the changes of menopause and feeling like a cranky creaky dis-jointed puppet.

How do I do it .
"You just learn to live with it"
I accept what cancer (s) and it's treatments have done to my body.
I don't have to like it. 

"Your point is ?"

I was just invited to join Team Nudie (best pun ever) - nothing to do with sponsored posts at all.

I entered as a dare to my inner critic - how could I say no when they rang today !
‪#‎mcgrathfoundation‬ are doing it too

The SydneySkinny, an annual nude swim in Sydney that encourages the depletion of body stereotypes and loving the body you have. 

I'm so excited to be a part of something with such a great message , my body is far, far from perfect - let alone normal.

I have many scars from surgery and birth marks, lumps and bumps besides no breasts !
Stuff it ! 
I can do this. 
I'm more worried about not drowning.

Don't wait for adventure to find you - make your own adventures!

Sydney Skinny on Sunday 28th February – go team nudie!
It's not a race, thank goodness.

There will be no selfies.

Yes it was so cold in Tassie I needed a beanie last Friday and three layers of clothes.