Saturday, 3 May 2008

Smiley Saturday

Lightening's post sure made me smile, I really needed it, because ...

I am sorry I haven't got much in me tonight I've got nothing much to smile about.

Well, that isn't true, really. It's more like...I have nothing new (not talking about the buy nothing challenge). I feel overwhelmed by so many things.

I feel guilty about mistakes I have made,things I don't do with my little boys and how I have been angry a lot lately. I am ashamed of the way my teen and I fight incessantly. I do my best not to win the 'game' and nag but even after 3 days at school camp he came home pressing all my buttons. I can't win.

I feel isolated and abandoned by friends ... I feel down and wanting.Some things I can't talk about on here. Some people. A lot of hurt.I am feeling a little down about lots of little things and a few big things but I know it will pass.

This, too, will pass.

Okay ... a few things that made me smile .

Though, I still haven't sorted about new glasses for S - after last Saturday's $crewup when my husband mowed them - S only had them a week . I did make a call today and a lovely lady whose little boy was born the same day as S & J - she understood (toddlers) and is going out of her way to help... I hope !

I found a new border trick (see below and Friday's post) for my images. Very cool. I will show you more tomorrow.

My favourite smiley thing is waking up every morning to the tousled hair and wide smiles of S & J -as they grapple trying to lift my shirt to nurse... and if they both wake together - to be the first. I can't help but smile ...even after only 4-5 hrs broken sleep.

Yes, I am still doing my 30 day challenge ...
Revive our heart

Day Eleven: (for yesterday because FireFox froze and blogger post verification was giving me grief)
"Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord." Eph. 5:22
... it is all about respect and I have to keep working on this.
their suggestion ...Show your respect in public by listening to him and smiling at him when he speaks. Place your hand in his as you walk together.
Hmm harder with s & J now - but it is always sweet to see a couple holding hands.

Day Twelve:
"With all lowliness and gentleness, with long suffering, bearing with one another in love."
Eph. 4:2 ... He does !

Part of the difficulty you may face as you continue in this 30-day challenge to encourage your husband is that you really are struggling to find positive things to praise. Perhaps the problem is not with your husband. Have you checked your own heart?
I don't have a lack of things to praise - he is amazing.I just don't take the time to do it or I take it for granted the things he does. Part of my feeling down is about his long suffering ...I feel bad for making him suffer.

Blogger still have post word verification and I hate it ...why me!
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